it's halloween ... one of my favorite holidays of the year.

yaaaaay the index page is gorgeous ... it looks a little more ... ermmmm me? hahahaha what do you think?

ok so i couldn't help myself ... the layout change is taking place a little earlier than scheduled .... on page down ... probably around five more to go ... i need help with my guestbook. i can't seem to get rid of the ugly blue lines

had yet another interesting messaging session with hamster ...

i spent most of the day at home with my mother. i started working on a new layout because in order for it to be up and ready by the time school starts i have to finish it by tomorrow mrning. i will be spending november 1 to 3 in the province. =( well i'm semi done with the template ... i think the worst part of making a site is uploading and testing.

my brother left at around 10am to go off to pagudpod with his bestfriend nico. i hope they get there and back safely. well it's a well deserved break for my brother, who's been working his butt off at school. i'm going to miss him [and all the noise] i guess. it's amazing how much noise my brother and i generate when we are both at home ... i guess that's why my parents weren't given more than to children ... the first two aalready amde enough noise for four.

my dad came home early and whisked us off to rockwell, so i got to try on my new boots. it was the 2nd time i'd ever been to power plant and well basically it's just a classier, ambience -ier [is theresuch a word] and neater mall ... it's not really type of place... i'm a true blue glorietta girl i guess. well we had dinner at deli france and basically just walked around.

things i learned today
-walking around in knee high boots with 4 inch heels i not good for your feet
-reading other people's email is bad for your sanity
-i really miss the livejournal crowd

i'm still figuring out whether i'm pretty or not [god that sounded awfully shallow ...]

i have to learn how to archive by the end of this month

things i did yesterday

[1] bought a case for the 5110
although it's not my phone .... my phone is currently out of commission right now, i bought the 5110 a new case. not that i didn't like the midnight blue standard case, but i just wanted to change its appearance while i was using it. so my brother , mom, adn i went phone cover shopping. i hadnt gone phone cover shopping in a long time. i wasn't much of a problem with my siemens ... i didn't have to change it's cover. i ended up getting a pink cover with matching buttons. the 5110 now looks like a barbie item =)

[2] bought myself a pair of knee high boots
i went to brand o rama and finally bought the pair of knee high boots i wanted. it ost me 1500php correction it cost my mom 1500php [she paid for it]. they're a lovely pair of boots [i will upload a picture of my boots when i have the time to] i now have a boots of various lengths [or is it heights]. i love wearing boots [and platforms] ... i'm rather vertically challenged [but my bigger problem is my being horizontally challenged] so i'm usually in heels [of various sorts]. one should never underestimate how much a two inch change in height can alter ones perspective.

[3] watched "legally blonde" with my family
kara was right, elle woods [reese] does make harvard law school look easy. i *heart* leagally blonde ... i think i'll go out and get the orignial vcd when it comes out. [i doubt ateneo law school will be that much fun or easy ... *sigh*]

grrrr... i have to edit my link page =( i am getting the urge to change my layout....
somebody stop me.

friday after reg was bad [reg it self was bad] ... my dad found out and well it wasn't pretty, but it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be .. well here i am. i'm still alive.

apparently i won't be able to spend halloween in alabang with my barkada [as i have always done] ... i'm going to have to go to cabanatuan with the rest of my family on the 31st and i'll be back on the 1st [all this while my brother is off at pagudpod ... lucky boy] i'll be spending halloween in the province .... the traditional way ... oh well

well yesterday was fun. we went to tagaytay in the morning to have brunch, and we played billiards [i seriously suck at it]

my dad toured us around tagaytay highlands as if we'd never seen it. i hate the stupid cable cars. i'm afraid of heights [another thing i'll never do with you ..ride cable cars or ride the ferris wheel] i just cant help seeing the cable snapping and the little tin box with me in it plumenting to the ground [all those trees and rocks] ... the agony of having an imagination like mine... one day the anxiety will kill me.

apparently kara was at tagaytay too ... i saw her dad at the buffet but i didn't greet him. well if some people go to tagaytay for the scenery and the weather, kara goes to tagaytay to play playstation.

the next eventful thing was jan's birthday dinner thing =) it was the 1st time i'd ever seen jan's new house in alabang [it was the 1st time she and her family were going to be staying there] it's a very american house, white, airy and spacious. they have lovely grass in the backyard. well my fave bit in the house woule be a toss up between jan's bathroom [with the purple and blue tiles =)] and the staircase. the staircase is just GORGEOUS it's one of those prom staircases where you're supposed to come down looking like a goddess and meet you're date [and floor him in the process] .. well it's a girl thing ... i wouldn't expect you to fully understand the whole staricase thing. jo kara mel and i all concluded gela [jans younger sister] was a very lucky girl.

we finally all got to see jan's boy and we unanimously agreed he was a keeper [ok more girl things] he was good looking, well mannered, nice and not boring, just a bit quiet ... well he got nice glowing reviews from us all =) much to jan's pleasure

teh food was great, as always.. kara jo and i had 5 shots of tequila each... it was really funny we all looked so "stressed" whenever we took shots .. i guess we were all trying to remember what order things were supposed to go in [we were al first timers] ... basically we were lick shoot suck and gulp rather than lick shoot and suck... for every shot it was salt, tequila, *make face* lime, then water after 5 we were all still sane, we could all still walk straight lines, feel our legs and the world wasn't moving. not bad for a first time. we were basically discussing the effects alcohol had on us ... well if marty and caloy get all philosophical when drunk, kara,jo and i get scientific

corinna wasn't there though. we figured it was because goey was there. apparently something bad happened and jan was afraid they would start a drama if they were both there ... we were trying to get cori to come early since goey was always late, but she just didn't want to answer text or calls. well given a choice between cori and goey i'd pick cori even if i do get annoyed with her.

we had fun playing with ben ... we actually convinced him that clarisse's name was really secret and that she and jo were lesbian. he was demanding that they kiss to prove it ... it didn't happen, but he still believed us anyway. he was drunk before the rest of us were... he had around 7 shots straight [while we were all still on our second] so he was horsing around most of the time.

we played "never ever" and instead of digging up secrets we resorted to peanut generating questions ... well from that game , nothing immensely juicy or surprising was learned ... no one's gotten laid yet or gotten very far yet. the peanut generating statements were "i have never failed a subject" "i have never flirted with my teacher" and "i have never weighed more than 95 pounds" hey ... maybe we should play never ever one time ...

i was picked up at 12midnight i was still sane eough to have a decent conversation with my parents [though i did reek of alcohol] ... we really should have had a sleep over. well enough about my evening with jose cuervo and my barkada...

well sembreak has been both good and bad for me .. probably more of good. i've had time to sort my self out and figure things out. spending time at home has been good for me. i haven't necessarily been more productive but i've kinda pieced myself back together which i think is important. i've had time to hang out with the people that matter [kahit chat lang icq/aim] spend time with family ... it's been good. hmm lets see i really doubt i've done better than you have concerning the to do list....

[ ] clean my room
[x] read american gods
[x] fix livejournal/website
[ ] go to the gym
[x] organize computer
[ ] go to confession
[x] shop

ok i think i've crossed out just a few but big deal ... i've spent less time on line [i'm so proud of myself].

i cam across some girl's journal and one of her entries was "i love you so much!"... the you being a hyperlink to her boyfriend's page ... i cringed. seriously.

i may be more damaged/traumatized than i think.

plug: my dad's on tv judging the ms earth pagent on rpn 9 right now

... and the world is getting stranger by the minute.... on instant messenger just a few minutes ago....

H*: (8:35 PM) hehehe verrrrryyyyyy farneeee
me: (8:36 PM) hahaha well what did you do to her ba?
H*: (8:36 PM) umm...long story.... ey...u know what...may na-notice ako sa iyo lately...
me: (8:36 PM) what?
me: (8:36 PM) did you notice
H*: (8:36 PM) i don't know, parang gumaganda ka...seriously
me: (8:37 PM) bka tumataba ...

there are times i dont take things like this very well because it makes me think... oh well. boys are liars until proven otherwise =)

things that made me smile today
- more people signed my guestbook
- i am actually missed
- lj entry dedicated to me [awwww]
- email from someone
- got through entire day without getting irritated with any family member
- did not have to "entertain" or play hostess at my lola's birthday
- did not have to do any public speaking
- the boys beat lasalle
- will see object of infatuation tomorrow at 1030
- will not have to hitch a ride to school
- got accepted into protagonist
- THE STARS ARE OUT TONIGHT AND THE NIGHT SKY IS GORGEOUS

my dad [the still uninformed], mom [already informed] and i [loser] went to cabanatuan to attend my grandmother's birthday lunch. i ended up sleeping the entire trip going there and the afternoon after lunch. anyway there was an abundance of food and old people at the occasion. the food wasn' t that great, i didn't really eat much. the old people were strangely punishing though... every single person i was introduced to or had to greet etc... always asked who my boyfriend was, and were shocked i didn't have one ... ok DO I LOOK LIKE THE TYPE WHO WOULD HAVE ONE OR AM I SUPPOSED TO HAVE ONE BY NOW.... yeah when they find out im 19 going on 20 they kinda cringe and ask if i'm being courted, and of course i answer no [more cringing follows]... WEIRD. i now kind of know how my unmarried aunts feel during reunions.

grrrrr... i hate crushlink. i just got another stupid email from that place. yes i would like to know who's got a crush on me but there is no way i'm filling out from after form to join every darned sponsor of that place [and risk getting more junk mail] to get stupid little hints. ignorance is bliss... hahahaha

the things that made me smile today ...

in no particular order

- holding someone's hand
- not getting kicked out of my course
- my friends making screening
- email received
- guestbook entries
- unexpected text
- having work to do
- free lunch =)
- having friends
- free coke
- feeling loved despite it all
- being hugged

the month of october seems o be the choice month to die. so many people have left within this month

i spent the whole day in school. i got my grade in cost accounting ... it seems i will be repeating the subject next year, but somehow my other management grades saved me from being kicked out of the course *whew* things would have gotten incredibly ugly if i had to shift at this time! well i still have not told my dad ... i'm scared of erupting volcanoes eh.

but that wasn't why i had to be in school from 8 to 4. i had to sit down with the rest of the student body comelec commissioners to re write the college electoral code. it took us more than an hour to re write re phrase and re define the first page [which is basically what the comelec is, and it's purpose]... we had a qquick lunch then returned to editing the obsolete electoral code. the elctoral code we wee re writing was written when tony lambino [of smokey mountain fame] was cheif magistrate [around 1997?] and well now he's a well established comm teacher ..... well an entire day's work was basically 5 pages of the 14 page code re written. it took us long because we were all arguing about the definitions the wording even the importance, and of course the usual chika about school and the student government. ok and before you start thinking i'm a total geek... i'll retuen to what i was doing

i've always gotten strange text messages from people i didn't know ... but i guess the stranger ones come from those closer to you. i got this one this morning at around 530am from a guy friend

i used to wonder why i couldn't seem to find the right person. i even asked God why he wouldn't allow me to commit myself to anyone. it took me years to find out why... He wanted me to wait for you...

that sure woke me up ... i think he was just smashed. this boy has a habit of getting very senti when smashed. nevertheless it made my morning more interesting

The Sun moves into the sign of Scorpio at the beginning of the week, which puts the emphasis on the spiritual and mystical side of your life. You may even feel like taking some time out for a retreat or short break of some kind, so that you can reconnect with your deeper motives and inner wisdom. Over the course of the week the Sun squares Neptune, which may mean that you will feel like combining a break with a deeper exploration into your spiritual nature. If however you fall in love instead, then by all means enjoy the romance of the occasion, but don't expect the wonderful feeling to last forever, as it most likely won't - be realistic. Venus conjuncts Mercury, which also indicates that your social life becomes that bit more interesting as certain people whom you may have wanted to get to know better for some time now seem drawn into your vicinity. Mercury also becomes stationary at the beginning of the week before resuming its forward motion, which gives even greater powers of focus and determination than usual. Any communication difficulties that you may have been having with one certain person will now resolve themselves beautifully.

i am now starting to share matthew's sentiments towards these horoscopes...

well the last few days have not exactly been the greatest for me ... my grades are lower than expected, i have to face my dad. i find myself in the same situation as i was in freshmen year. i'm terrified as hell.

i changed my layout ... the other one took too long to load =( my world is falling apart right now .... please excuse me for a bit

i FINALLY ironed out all the kinks on my index page ... maybe blogger doesn't hate me after all ... i've downloaded the scripts for the blog back or comment function... i just have to figure out how to use it. whew! i still have lots of work to do.

oh my god it's up! yaaaay i have an update page now! *dances around like the little kid she actually is* woohooo! now for the rest of the site ...

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